i typed this on myspace yesterday at work and i juss found it unbelievably awesome

i'm sarcastic 2 an unbelievable degree. i can't stand ignorance and immaturity. i keep only certain people close because others tend to only stay 4 a short while and then leave with a part of me that can never be returned. i don't think i ask much of those that i say i love. i'm sick of people that try 2 fit into a society where the standards are set so high that no one can ever be considered "normal". i'm not into trends or fads...i try and be as true 2 myself as i can and i hate when people try 2 hinder or screw it up. people tend 2 take advantage of the fact that i try 2 c tha good in most things or that i'll be there 4 u when u need me...i'm done. i've learned that things change and we can do nothin' 2 stop them . i can't help but wonder what it would be like if people never interfered. the people i surround myself with knoe sides of me that most people don't...if they leave, a part of me iz gone. don't leave me to think that i let you into my world and my feelings only to walk away from everything we've had and shared 2gether...i don't think i can bear many disappointments when they come from the people that i LOVE...

HaLLo!!! time 4 ma once a month entry!! LoL..n-e-wayz...everythin' iz goin' fine (still). on my myspace i actually did a break down of ma normal week..maybe i shoulda brought that over here. but n-e-wayz...it basically showd how i have no life whatsoever anymore LoL. but this past weekend wuz seriously one of tha best onez i've had in quite a long time. BREAK DOWN TIME!!! bwahaha

Friday: work..went home..got a speeding ticket (damn rite..i'm an official felon!! haha..36mph in tha 25mph zone..total rebel w/o a cause) so that wuz stupid, but that nite wuz tha THS TALENT SHOW!!! ma sis won it 4 vocal...cuz u knoe we havta keep tha whole singing' thing in tha family ;). got 2 c some of the old HOMIEZ!!! LoL..i miss people so much..kissez wit hugz!! then ma sis wanted 2 go 2 in n out so we went there and yeah..that wuz koo.

Saturday: had 2 go 2 class at friekin' 8 in tha mornin'...that wuz gay. but i left early (like 3ish) becuz it wuz stupid. then later that nite i went 2 chill wit MA HUSBAND!!! ::muah:: and some chick frenz of hiz from church. friekin' hilarious omg..good timez. we hadn't hung out wit each other in awhile. miss ma babe ;)

Sunday: church in tha mornin', went 2 take ma sis 2 a frenz LiL' bro'z b-day party and then tha guitarist from ma church (who iz now officially my rock star husband) wanted 2 get 2gether so we could write some songz, so we did, but we ended up juss goin' 2 tha church and he played a bunch of random songz, so it wuz more juss of a team bonding moment...i dunno, but it wuz fun. so after church that nite...we decided 2 go 2 starbuckz 2 try and write a song. still didn't happen LoL. another guy from c hurhc called him and he wuz starnded at hiz cuzinz house so he wanted 2 knoe if i could go pick him up..so of 'course we went over 2 go get him. we ended up chillin' at lomita park 4 a couple of hourz juss bein' retarded and talkin'. i got home at like 11 and juss realized what a good weekend i had.

so yeah...thas ma life update...everythin' iz koo rite now. and if no one iz doin' anythin' 4 Easter...WILMINGTON FIRST ASSEMBLY iz havin' a drama presentation, so if u want more info, let me knoe. i'm singin' so go and listen 2 me!! LoL. i'm done now..KISSEZ WIT HUGZ!!!

HaLLo...once again..being harrassed 2 update this friekin' thing. no idea what 2 write. ummmm..last nite we had our music nite wit tha youth group at church...BOMB. it wuz really koo. and what else...o yeah..there wuz drama there but it duzn't really matter becuz itz no one else's business. plus no one knowz tha people anyway...wellz maybe desi but thas it.

what else...heart day wuz kinda lame. wuz at tha lame wit ma sis lookin' 4 a dress 4 sweetheartz. me bein' the nice person that i am...i payed 4 tha damn thing. bad thing: it wuz 95 buckz...good thing: she returned it and found one she liked for 33...DAMN RITE I GOT MA MONEY BACK!!! ummmm...i got speakerz in ma car ::yay!!!:: next thing iz subz becuz i REALLY want bass...tha thought of it iz friekin' ORGASMIC!!! (LoL..desi u knoe where this word iz from...) so yeah...work iz goin' well...skool iz...skool and i think thas ma life update.

i wuz also thinkin' tha other day 'bout what love really iz...cuz u knoe...heart day wuz on monday...and i came 2 somethin' interesting (at least it wuz 2 me)

LOVE IS A COMBINATION OF EXTREMES...what i mean iz...it can make u feel ure best, but also ure worst. izn't it weird?? although there iz no set definition of love...therez alwayz that cheeseball answer: itz juss that feeling that you get. thas true and all...but how do u describe tha feeling? for me...itz simply being held and told "i love you". at that moment...itz like i 4get all of ma problem, anythin' that happened that day and itz like time stopz. itz crazy really...'course i wuz thinkin' 'bout this at 12 in tha mornin' so maybe thas y i went into depth 'bout it...i dunno. i felt like writing it down becuz tha way i described it in ma head wuz...i dunno...beautiful. so yeah...if u ever read this jacob...thas how u make me feel :)

KISSEZ WIT HUGZ 2 ANYONE THAT STILL READZ THIS!!! and if u don't have one already...go and get a friekin' MYSPACE!!!

ok...ever since i got a myspace i have totally neglected my poor xanga. of 'course...no one readz it n-e-wayz but here i am writin' somethin' n-e-wayz.

HAPPY FEBRUARY 1!!! time iz flyin' by...what have i been doin'?? wellz...life iz goin' perrty good. ma job iz good, i'm supposed 2 be startin' skool next week so hopefuly that workz wit tha schedule i have now. i've been perrty busy wit work and church stuffz. itz koo though..duzn't leave much time 2 be bored. and now i have someone 2 think 'bout all tha time :) (u prolly hate me 4 sayin' that...but itz true!!! I LOVE YOU!!!) and yeah...thas it..kissez wit hugz 2 anyone who still readz this